Tuesday, July 1, 2008


So I'm coolin in Tuttlemen watching my students take a Pre-SAT exam and I can't help but ponder about myself. Normally I think about what goes on in my life but today I decided to wonder how I am reacting to what is going on in my life. I see myself maturing but how? I am going into my senior year of college and as I walk by various orientation freshmen I start to think, "Damn, that was me THREE years ago."

I know I've learned a lot about life and myself in those three years. I've experienced two relationships (so far) and I've been single for a good amount of the time. I have learned not to settle for anything. I have learned that I deserve a phenominal women and I might have found her. I've experienced being financially stable and I'm currently experiencing being financially unstable. I've learned to control my bad habits for the most part while unfortunately picking up a even worse one. I've been drunk, high, and lonely (not related but shit, this is my thoughts dammit). I've met a shit load of poppin ass people and a shit load of lame ones lol... I've gained a big brother and big sis. I've become humble and have learned to be very much complacent with my life as is, no matter what the circumstance is. I've impressed people. I've pissed off people. People has pissed me off. I developed a habit of ignoring people whom I deem unneccessary to continue communication with. I went from being hyper chill and somewhat quiet to a very charming and sociable guy (had to gas myself real quick, but in my eyes it's true).

I've developed a love for writing or I should say expressing myself through words. I've written a poem. I've heard poems. I've seen poppin ass performances from some of my close friends. I've become more conscientious about my surroundings and my life. I have indulged in numerous fulfilling conversations about EVERYTHING!!! I have listened to hundreds of new songs. I have been put on to numerous new artists: Chrisette Michelle, Wale (Ms. Krabapple), Raheem Devaughn, Gnarls Barkley, Lil Wayne, Robin Thicke... and I can go on & on & on.... But Who Cares? lol

I have matured in mind, body, and soul... (not so much body but definitely mind and soul lol)

I have developed a deeper relationship with God. I've watched my younger sister grow up. I have watched my actual older brother grow down. I have experienced what it feels like to be wasted on your 21st Birthday. I've learned to appreciate the friends and family that are in your corner. I have learned what to do and what not to do in a relationship. I have learned who to keep around me and who to keep at a distance. I have developed lifetime relationships with people that I see myself inviting to my wedding. I have developed a lifetime relationship with someone who is most likely going to be my son's Godfather (big bro). I have obtained a directorial position in an organization. I have operated my own radio show. I have learned to appreciate life. I have learned how to appreciate everything that happens to me. I have obtained a job that I can truly say changed my life for the better (Upward Bound).

I've made mistakes. I've learned from those mistakes. I've made good choices. I have made bad choices. I have no regrets. I have my mentor/confidant/advisor/fashion consultant/Mom in my corner the WHOLE ENTIRE TIME! (I thank God for her every single night). I have discovered a new path I want to take in my career. I have changed my major three times and finally got it right. I have met such awesome people. I REPEAT. I have met some AWESOME ASS people. I have learned not to take anything for granted.

Last but not least, I have learned that I have a lot more to learn and I should take each day as a blessing. I Love You guys!

Be Easy,


missgideon said...

that was fucking beautiful.